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It just dawned on me tonight, what I really need to make this week better. Not just a day off (although, I’m enjoying every single minute of my day tomorrow, and not thinking about work one iota). Not just an entire new set of patients (my attending, resident and co-intern hate my patients as well; I at least feel better that I’m not the only one), so that I can feel like I’m helping someone, not fighting the demands of entitled, drug-seeking, whining, not-sick patients. Or better yet no patients, since I’m carrying the entire team (yesterday – 12 patients on team, 10 were mine. Today 9 on team, 8 mine and I had the only admission. *sigh*). Not only more sleep. Not sleeping in (this 5:30 thing is going to kill me).
What I really, really, really need is a hug. A good long embrace, where I can weep a little and rest and recharge in the warm, protective arms of another. And as much as I appreciate the virtual squeezes from all of you, it’s just not the same.
It’s got to get better. This month has got to get better.
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Did you see the movie “Waitress”? You just described a scene from that movie with spooky precision if you haven’t. lol
I know it’s not what you need, but *HUGS* anyway.
Um… you could hug your pillow. I know that sounds stupid, but big, soft pillows can be good to hug and cry into. Sometimes just crying helps you get out all the crap that’s been building up inside, even if it doesn’t make it go away or change anything, it still feels good to just let go and get it out.
*more hugs* I wish we lived closed. I’d come over and bake you some cookies and watch a movie with you or something. 🙁
Just… take care of you. I’m glad you intend to enjoy your day tomorrow. That’s a good way to go into it. Don’t think about anyone or anything else, just you and what would make you happy, even if it’s just for that one day.
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*I wish we lived closer.
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I took me a couple of days to respond to this, sorry, I needed a little time away from thinking about things. Anyway, belated *HUGS* back. 🙂
I have not seen Waitress. I’ll have to add it to my list. I read yours and Becka’s review, and I really like Nathan Fillion, so I was hoping to see it anyway. Do I need to have tissues ready?
I wish we lived closer as well. I really really do. And I wish that Wisconsin was closer to where you’re going for the family reunion and seeing Brian’s family (that’s still this summer, right?) so that we could meet. Maybe someday I’ll be able to make it out into your neck of the woods.
*HUGS again* Thanks again for your support. It always means a lot.
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Obviously I can’t offer anything except sympathy, but I hope you find someone to give you that hug or the light comes out in some other way. Take care of yourself. Have some tea, it always helps.
That is the perfect icon to express what you’re describing.
🙂 Thank you. I got some of those hugs that I was needing. And a cup of tea. You’re right, it does do miracles! Wakes up Time Lords, sooths emo feelings… 🙂
X-Files really had some of the best hugs ever.